Confidence

I just remembered back in middle school, I was grouped into a science project with these two girls. These two girls made fun of how wavy and not straight my hair was. It really hurt me. I felt like I was ugly because the in was straight hair, I also grew up with white people. So I was considered a minority at my school. I felt like I had to be white to be pretty or the in group. There was once upon a time, this chick and her friend always made fun of me in middle school. They would mock me and  always thought I was Chinese, but I told them I was Vietnamese.. I ended up crying in class because the tension and the build up of being bullied by those girls. “Ching Chong,” they would mock me. It was embarrassing and hurtful. I also grew up with serve acne and I always felt inferior because of it. A lot of people always pointed that out. LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOUR FACE? I didn’t have many friends and I was pretty shy back then.

Now I realized, I can rock out with curly hair without even curling my hair with a curling iron. I used to thought there was something wrong with being an Asian because there are not many Asians at my school. Now I think that it is neat because I feel exotic. Silly to say. I have pride being an Asian American. My acne stage healed up now and I feel more confidence in myself. I learned to be happy with myself. I used to want many friends and want to fit in, but now it doesn’t really matter anymore. All these hurtful things don’t really bother me anymore. Sometimes looking back of them can be painful, but I learned to improve myself. 

I want to build up my confidence and be happy with myself.